22 AND COUNTING… BY IFEOLUWA KALEJAIYE
Today is my birthday…Yup that’s right!HBD to me:mrgreen:
.Hello people,my name is Ifeoluwa Kalejaiye… (among other names..lol
)Sometime on the 30th day of April,22 years ago,a queen was born.#selflove
Oh and by the way,I’ve been told it was a Friday. *sighs* 22 years and it seems like eternity.I can only imagine What I’d be saying when I’m 80 years old..Writing this letter and publishing it is my birthday gift to my self.However,I’m also hoping that it would in any way possible,help as many as can relate..
Dear Me,
22 years ago,God created,in the wonderful coven that is called Heaven,one of yet and up until date,His finest and most wonderful masterpiece. It was one of the finest moments both in heaven and earth. Earth was overjoyed at this presence and although Heaven mourned her loss,there was still an abundance of joy at the countless and limitless achievements she would have.Thismasterpiece is you and that is how your beginning was.
You were sent,you, the perfectly and wonderfully selfless creature,to a world filled with as much hate as it had love.Asmuch pain as it had joy.As much suffering as it had enjoyment and as much death as it had life.Although the balance has hitherto never been equal,you were not sent here unprepared or unequipped. Sadly,it has taken you a while to discover that you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.
I know that this 22 years has been a bumpy ride but isn’t it just an amazing thought that some of the best days of your life haven’t happened yet?Remember that!Knowing the battles that you have had to fight and how you have most of the time come out victorious,it saddens me to see u focus on your scars instead of your victory.It breaks my heart that you do not fully know your worth.I hurt when I see you selling yourself short. You look at those scars and you feel that because of them,you are not good enough. Oh how wrong you are.You wear them with shame instead of pride.There is a gait in your steps when you should be walking with your head up high.My heart bleeds and my eyes are full of tears.
I am not unaware of the pain and hurt you have been through,but you need to know that they have shaped and moulded you into the woman you have become today.Look in the mirror.Reflect on the reflection.I know it’s been a tough one but there is so much more inside of you.Watching you wade through your life and sometimes seeing you stumble,seeing you fall and get back on your feet,looking at the mistakes you’ve made in this journey and staring into the depth of your eyes,I see a bleak darkness,but I also see a tiny ray of light.Fighting so desperately to shine through all of that black mass. I see someone who is desperate to be happy and I feel the need to remind you my dear,that happiness is not a destination.Its a feeling.It comes and it goes and that’s ok.Ife,beware of destination addiction – a preoccupation with the idea that happiness is in the next place,the next job or with the next partner. Until you give up the idea that happiness is somewhere else,it will never be where you are.
People are bound to make mistakes and you have made more that your fair share.However young lady,it can no longer be called mistakes when they become repeated performances. Unlike most people,when I look at you,I see beyond the physical.I see your heart and I can tell that you are a good person.Stop wasting your time trying to prove it and just focus on being yourself.Do you gal…there’s really no better option.
Despite the odd tips of the scale,there is a balance in life.Find that balance.Remember to set standards for your life and live by them.Its not pride…its self respect.Its knowing your worth and demanding nothing less from people.
Please stop hanging unto the pain the past has brought you.Anything that hurts you can teach u,and if it’s still hurting you,it’s because you haven’t learned. And you can only learn when you are ready to let go.
I have watched you make friends for all of the wrong reasons. I’ve watched you hang onto relationships that are destroying so trust me when I tell you that if you gotta force it,leave it alone.Relationships,friendships,ponytails,just leave it.Learning how to be solitary is central to the art of loving yourself.If you can comfortably be alone,then you can be with others without using them as a means of escape.Remember that you first of all have to love yourself before people can love you.You have to treat yourself with respect before people will respect you.
I look at you and I see the past hovering over you like a rainy cloud.I see u trying to fight it and I see you loosing more times than you are winning.But let me tell you that one of the happiest moments in life,is when you find the courage to let go of what you can’t change.You can’t change the past and you can’t change what it did to you.What you can do,however, is make peace with your past so that it doesn’t spoil your present and destroy your future.
Ifeoluwa,what others think of you is none of your business.Believe that time heals almost anything but you have to give the time some time.Hunnay no one is the reason for your happiness except yourself.You take sole responsibility for that and you need to fess up!Please stop comparing your life with others.You are more than enough for you. Darling please stop thinking too much.Its ok not to have all the answers and gal smile for goodness sake
You don’t own all the problems in the world.
The times that I have seen you crash has usually left my heart in shattered pieces.
Seeing you so desperately trying to move on is sad. You need to bear in mind that some things you are not meant to move on from.Some things you have to work through.Learn to discern the difference.
Yes,everything happens for a reason but sometimes the reason is that you are stupid and you make bad decisions and I’ll be damned but I have seen you make some of the worst decisions ever.Own up to it,forgive yourself and learn.That is the only way you can grow.
Now darling,people will talk…any which way,but you have to look deep inside of you and do right by yourself. The truth is there are people who are jealous and they will stop at nothing to give you a bad name.Thing is,people like that don’t even realise that you don’t have it all together.They are actually jealous of a struggle wrapped in strength.One thing you need to know about people is that in the end,you’ll see who’s fake,who’s true and who would risk it all for you.And trust me,some people will totally surprise you.
Can you remember who you were before the world told you who you should be?Find that person and be that person.Be confident in that person and know that confidence here is not “They will like me”.Confidence is “I’ll be fine of they don’t”. Stop apologising for refusing to be disrespected,lied to and mistreated.If they can’t take the heat,they should get out of the kitchen.In other words,if anyone can’t accept you for whom you are,if you have to bend over backwards to accommodate them,then they don’t deserve to be in your life.Kick them out.Theres no need to be perfect to inspire others.Let people get inspired by how you deal with your imperfections.
As I conclude this letter,I want you to bear in mind a couple of things.
-Everything will be ok in the end.If its not ok,it’s not the end.
-Not everyone has to like you.Noteveryone has taste.
-Stop wearing your past on your sleeve.
-Everyone makes mistakes in life but that doesn’t mean that they have to keep paying for it the rest of their lives.
-It’s important to make someone happy and it’s important to start with yourself.
-Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.
You are amazing,wonderful,smart,intelligent and kind. You are a good person with a beautiful heart and soul.A wonderful personality and a gorgeous physical appearance.You have made and you will still make mistakes.You don’t need to hang on to the regret.You are human and it’s ok to have a meltdown.Just don’t unpack and live there.Dust it off and get back on the road.Now you have some interesting ways of learning what not to do next time.Youare strong and you owe it to yourself to be all that you were made to be…..and more.
I miss you….I miss the real you….And it’s been a long day without you my friend….I want to tell you all about it when I see u again….Hopefully sooner than later…..Cheers and have a spectacular birthday hun.
With so much love
Your Inner Self.
PS
If you are still hanging onto your past.If you are constantly unhappy with whom you are.If you have allowed yourself make so many bad decisions because you felt it was the best you could do,then this letter is also to you.Find yourself….
.Hello people,my name is Ifeoluwa Kalejaiye… (among other names..lol)Sometime on the 30th day of April,22 years ago,a queen was born.#selfloveOh and by the way,I’ve been told it was a Friday. *sighs* 22 years and it seems like eternity.I can only imagine What I’d be saying when I’m 80 years old..Writing this letter and publishing it is my birthday gift to my self.However,I’m also hoping that it would in any way possible,help as many as can relate..Dear Me,
22 years ago,God created,in the wonderful coven that is called Heaven,one of yet and up until date,His finest and most wonderful masterpiece. It was one of the finest moments both in heaven and earth. Earth was overjoyed at this presence and although Heaven mourned her loss,there was still an abundance of joy at the countless and limitless achievements she would have.Thismasterpiece is you and that is how your beginning was.
You were sent,you, the perfectly and wonderfully selfless creature,to a world filled with as much hate as it had love.Asmuch pain as it had joy.As much suffering as it had enjoyment and as much death as it had life.Although the balance has hitherto never been equal,you were not sent here unprepared or unequipped. Sadly,it has taken you a while to discover that you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.
I know that this 22 years has been a bumpy ride but isn’t it just an amazing thought that some of the best days of your life haven’t happened yet?Remember that!Knowing the battles that you have had to fight and how you have most of the time come out victorious,it saddens me to see u focus on your scars instead of your victory.It breaks my heart that you do not fully know your worth.I hurt when I see you selling yourself short. You look at those scars and you feel that because of them,you are not good enough. Oh how wrong you are.You wear them with shame instead of pride.There is a gait in your steps when you should be walking with your head up high.My heart bleeds and my eyes are full of tears.
I am not unaware of the pain and hurt you have been through,but you need to know that they have shaped and moulded you into the woman you have become today.Look in the mirror.Reflect on the reflection.I know it’s been a tough one but there is so much more inside of you.Watching you wade through your life and sometimes seeing you stumble,seeing you fall and get back on your feet,looking at the mistakes you’ve made in this journey and staring into the depth of your eyes,I see a bleak darkness,but I also see a tiny ray of light.Fighting so desperately to shine through all of that black mass. I see someone who is desperate to be happy and I feel the need to remind you my dear,that happiness is not a destination.Its a feeling.It comes and it goes and that’s ok.Ife,beware of destination addiction – a preoccupation with the idea that happiness is in the next place,the next job or with the next partner. Until you give up the idea that happiness is somewhere else,it will never be where you are.
People are bound to make mistakes and you have made more that your fair share.However young lady,it can no longer be called mistakes when they become repeated performances. Unlike most people,when I look at you,I see beyond the physical.I see your heart and I can tell that you are a good person.Stop wasting your time trying to prove it and just focus on being yourself.Do you gal…there’s really no better option.
Despite the odd tips of the scale,there is a balance in life.Find that balance.Remember to set standards for your life and live by them.Its not pride…its self respect.Its knowing your worth and demanding nothing less from people.
Please stop hanging unto the pain the past has brought you.Anything that hurts you can teach u,and if it’s still hurting you,it’s because you haven’t learned. And you can only learn when you are ready to let go.
I have watched you make friends for all of the wrong reasons. I’ve watched you hang onto relationships that are destroying so trust me when I tell you that if you gotta force it,leave it alone.Relationships,friendships,ponytails,just leave it.Learning how to be solitary is central to the art of loving yourself.If you can comfortably be alone,then you can be with others without using them as a means of escape.Remember that you first of all have to love yourself before people can love you.You have to treat yourself with respect before people will respect you.
I look at you and I see the past hovering over you like a rainy cloud.I see u trying to fight it and I see you loosing more times than you are winning.But let me tell you that one of the happiest moments in life,is when you find the courage to let go of what you can’t change.You can’t change the past and you can’t change what it did to you.What you can do,however, is make peace with your past so that it doesn’t spoil your present and destroy your future.
Ifeoluwa,what others think of you is none of your business.Believe that time heals almost anything but you have to give the time some time.Hunnay no one is the reason for your happiness except yourself.You take sole responsibility for that and you need to fess up!Please stop comparing your life with others.You are more than enough for you. Darling please stop thinking too much.Its ok not to have all the answers and gal smile for goodness sake
You don’t own all the problems in the world.The times that I have seen you crash has usually left my heart in shattered pieces.
Seeing you so desperately trying to move on is sad. You need to bear in mind that some things you are not meant to move on from.Some things you have to work through.Learn to discern the difference.Yes,everything happens for a reason but sometimes the reason is that you are stupid and you make bad decisions and I’ll be damned but I have seen you make some of the worst decisions ever.Own up to it,forgive yourself and learn.That is the only way you can grow.
Now darling,people will talk…any which way,but you have to look deep inside of you and do right by yourself. The truth is there are people who are jealous and they will stop at nothing to give you a bad name.Thing is,people like that don’t even realise that you don’t have it all together.They are actually jealous of a struggle wrapped in strength.One thing you need to know about people is that in the end,you’ll see who’s fake,who’s true and who would risk it all for you.And trust me,some people will totally surprise you.
Can you remember who you were before the world told you who you should be?Find that person and be that person.Be confident in that person and know that confidence here is not “They will like me”.Confidence is “I’ll be fine of they don’t”. Stop apologising for refusing to be disrespected,lied to and mistreated.If they can’t take the heat,they should get out of the kitchen.In other words,if anyone can’t accept you for whom you are,if you have to bend over backwards to accommodate them,then they don’t deserve to be in your life.Kick them out.Theres no need to be perfect to inspire others.Let people get inspired by how you deal with your imperfections.
As I conclude this letter,I want you to bear in mind a couple of things.
-Everything will be ok in the end.If its not ok,it’s not the end.
-Not everyone has to like you.Noteveryone has taste.
-Stop wearing your past on your sleeve.
-Everyone makes mistakes in life but that doesn’t mean that they have to keep paying for it the rest of their lives.
-It’s important to make someone happy and it’s important to start with yourself.
-Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.
You are amazing,wonderful,smart,intelligent and kind. You are a good person with a beautiful heart and soul.A wonderful personality and a gorgeous physical appearance.You have made and you will still make mistakes.You don’t need to hang on to the regret.You are human and it’s ok to have a meltdown.Just don’t unpack and live there.Dust it off and get back on the road.Now you have some interesting ways of learning what not to do next time.Youare strong and you owe it to yourself to be all that you were made to be…..and more.
I miss you….I miss the real you….And it’s been a long day without you my friend….I want to tell you all about it when I see u again….Hopefully sooner than later…..Cheers and have a spectacular birthday hun.
With so much love
Your Inner Self.
PS
If you are still hanging onto your past.If you are constantly unhappy with whom you are.If you have allowed yourself make so many bad decisions because you felt it was the best you could do,then this letter is also to you.Find yourself….
Lights out with Kharis
Happy Belated Birthday Hannah Kalejaiye. Meanwhile, who you Epp?? ♥♥
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